I just ain't feelin' it no more!

[Chelsea]

Well, not excatly, but it could get like that!  

Every weekend I have to go to the barn, and work.  And that consists of going out there Saturday nites from 4-6ish (in the winter) and feeding and bringing in, getting up at 7:15 (on the weekend) being there by 8, rain or shine, cold or hot, feed the horses, turn them out and hay, water, muck and bed all 28 stalls!  I've been doing it since the beginning of the summer, and its grueling work -- espically for $5 an hour.  I usually work off about $150 a month, but I don't get to see a penny of that.  Well, I do, it gets taken off of my board.  I mean, I am so greateful that I have the oppertunity to work off some of my board, but GEEZ, I am getting so sick of it.  I'm actually becoming bitter.  It makes my back hurt and it seems neverending.  I remember when I used to be so excited to get up, go to the barn and spend the day there.  Now, its like, I want to go, ride my horse and get the hell out of there as fast as I can.  Ever since I've been working there, its just not fun anymore.  Today was the worst tho...I usually have someone else to work with me, but today it was just me.  ACK!  It was seriously horriable.  I didn't get finished til 4:15 and I'd been out there since 8.  Then I had to get ready for the show.  Its just getting to be too much.  I tried to tell my Mom how much it sucked and I didn't like it, but I wanted a job elsewhere, she said no b/c my grades weren't good enough (A's and B's AREN'T bad!   )  Anyway, I don't know what I'm asking for...I just needed to vent or something, because I was a BITCH today, and I couldn't help it no matter how hard I tried, I was just so stressed and overwhelmed!  

[Spaz]

Awww it's OK Chelsea!

I think that you need to tell your mom what you just told us...that it is torture (with no benefits!).  You don't want to end up not liking the barn at all!!

[Clueless]

I know how you feel Chelsea.  I went through sort of the same thing this past summer and it got to the point where I dreaded going to the barn.  I agree with Spaz.  You need to tell your mom.  If she knows all of the specifics, maybe she'll let up.  Throw in that if you get another job somewheres else, you probably won't be working as many hours or even if you do, you'll have others to keep you company and help and you'll be getting more money an hour.   Maybe even tell your employer that it's just too much for you and to maybe reduce what you do.  Good luck!!!  Just don't let it get to the point where you flat out dread the barn and don't want to go anymore!!!!